Caleigh's Jubilee Experience 2019

After Jubilee this year I decided to ask a few friends if they would like to share their experiences at the conference. I particularly chose individuals whom I know enjoy writing and sharing through that medium. I am honored to introduce to you my dear friend and sister in Christ. Without further ado I give you the words and writing of Caleigh Sullivan:

Jubilee of 2019. Where do I begin to express the love and hope of God I experienced? In these moments I sit back and pray “Lord, fill my mouth with Your words”.

I would like to take you all back to a year ago. A year ago, going in to Jubilee 2018, I was not Caleigh. But if I had to introduce myself to you it would be this: broken, abused, sad, lost, unidentified, doubtful, needy, attention seeking.
And so, I went to Jubilee with this high expectation that God would change all of that in one weekend. I was excited and anxious mixed together with a great anticipation of how much my life could flip upside down. But, as I walked through those doors, the only emotion I felt was… anger. There was SUCH a disconnect.

I despised being in a place of worship. I was angry with the view in front of me with all of these fellow believers worshipping, dancing, singing, and praising together with seemingly no angst or sorrow. “Why can they feel God’s glory and I can’t”. I was angry because God has been a huge and evident part of my life growing up and I had no understanding of this abandonment I felt. So, I walked out of the room, followed by my sister- in- law and mentor and prayerfully went through my emotions. Let me be clear though, my feelings did not change. They didn’t change until seven months following that one weekend. 

I thank God for that experience, because that is when He began to dig up the dirt and lay new foundations of my heart.
Going into Jubilee this year I was mending, healing, happy, found, identified as a child of God, hopeful, content, separate. Let me introduce myself to you- I am Caleigh. And Jubilee of 2019 filled me up more than my cup can contain.
From being immersed in a group of thousands of believers worshipping and crying out to the same Savior as I, to the alone time that I experienced when I separated myself from the crowds. It was all absolutely amazing.

I survived the whole weekend with a grand total of five hours of sleep and yet somehow, I was able to walk out of that room more awake than I have ever been. What did I learn? That God IS evident. Sometimes it just might take a year to realize or remember this. That discipline within your faith will outweigh motivation in every way. That when God is your first priority, no matter what you are feeling in the moment, He will overcome that with His Love.


I learned that God TRANSFORMS EVERYTHING.